technology… ranting… overused ellipses…
Divergence, originally uploaded by southpaw20.
Having a personal website is an infuriating experience. How do you want to be perceived? What is your voice? Should you talk about your life or try to create a topical narrative that focuses your blog?
I have always been beholden to the path of impersonal narrative about a topic, but I like far too much and am far too unfocused to do that properly…
I am just a failure at blogging.
Perhaps I should just write furious diatribes on the inequities of the world…
Not right now, because I am tired and apathetic, but soon (probably not… just an FYI; I will warn but not come through for my faithful reader).
In other news, Flickr (cc) search did not find what I am looking for… I should take my own shot at some point and re-link it. typing “furiously writing” should come up with good results.
The fantastic thing about blogging is that most bloggers blog about things that they have read at other blogs or try to create new content to be read by other bloggers. The disturbing trend is that most non-pro bloggers will inevitably have difficulties creating new content all of the time and turn towards the favored topic to write about when they have no ideas: “Ideas for what to do when you have no ideas about what to blog.”
Always a scintillating topic, I am sure that can be distilled into such trite topics as:
My suggestion, if you are bored… write about other bloggers. This way it looks like you have something to write, but you are really just reacting/copying from another, and they may even appreciate this marginal-plagiarism!
Theoretically, you could write about another blogger, create a link, and then fall into the inescapable void of a troll war; everything generated from one remark that is never let go… The process goes like this:
I have hotlinked to a watermarked picture about copying/cheating, because it just feels right for this article (not to mention I have decided to post a marginally-related picture in any post for my own aesthetic pleasure)…
Blogging is the most meta thing possible. You are writing to be read, but by other people that blog, who want to have you (another blogger) read their site. It is an inbred damned circle, unwelcoming to the people that don’t produce content (although the blogger would love these people to comment on their blog, or for them to become inspired by reading your blog and then begin blogging themselves and post a link to your blog and direct other bloggers to the originating site).
If you could search all blogs to see what the number one blog topic is, it would be about blogging ideas or the lack of ideas. It is hard to create new content all the time, so sometimes it is good just to bitch about that difficulty, and that is your prerogative and a topic to create a post (look… even more meta is my bitching about bloggers blogging about how it is hard to blog, because I CAN’T THINK OF ANYTHING TO BLOG!!).
If you have any critical input into the analysis that you have just read, feel free to link me or comment below, I may read any comments and go to the site and comment on them in order to lead them back here though… (or just fuck off if you are not in the mood to reciprocate you self-centered bastiches).
I parsed my tag-like categories into into 13 broad topics that I can capture and steer the vast majority of my writings… and I see can see from a high-level that the topics upon which I have chosen to focus have grave implications for the redemption of my soul… (or may just say that I am a little “half glass empty”).
I could add some more, but I like the symbolic nature of constraining myself to thirteen… These thirteen are the unlucky few topics chosen to represent my thoughts, dreams and greatest fears (or perhaps just the semi-coherent postings I can motivate myself to create).
I may as well focus on why I have chosen these topics for a few posts. It may spur some great ideas, or at least give me some direction… I will begin alphabetically (and even hotlink the best picture I can find to depict the category–an aside, it is nigh impossible to find a picture of a person in a bed, with their covers over their head, in the fetal position [surprisingly]):
Alphabetically, apathy is the first of the Thirteen Damned Categories; yes, this is the name of their grouping in unison in this ‘blog. I think I may license the name of this groupingunder a Creative Commons License, as I have recently learned nobody will really respect that license anyways…
I find that often, my writings are tainted with the flavor of defeat. Apathy is an apt description for a posting that I care about far too much, but it is outside of my control. Perhaps apathy is actually used as a defensive mechanism for myself; allowing me the merest shred of psychological armor for my thoughts lain bare…
Then again, it may just be about things that I care little or am fantastically unenthused, but that is far less exciting or existentially meaningful. I find that I oft drift to holding a philosophical view of the world somewhat nihilistic in taste that is grey and suffocating; where the world is lifeless and devoid of meaning. If I were to post something that feels this way, I think that it would be a shoe-in for a categorization of “Apathy…”
Tweets…
Time to Throw DOWN!!!
I am feeling like it may be time to take this blogging shit more seriously. In effect, I think it is time to throw down:
This blog (and most blogs in the internets) is a half-assed attempt to spur people into communicating and myself into writing something worthwhile. In effect, it is just an ego trip; myself hoping that people will just read and comment due to the compelling nature of the content.
In the real world, this does not happen without networking or self-promotion. Realistically, I should actively pursue some dialog, and that may mean commenting in the blogosphere, finding and maintaining a voice and looking for others that share my ideas/passions…
The fight could begin for the attention of the few, the nerdy and the semi-apathetic (because the apathetic are damned difficult to reach). Unfortunately, I am one of the more-than semi-apathetic.